Will it always be a gamble?

how is it when you meet someone just awesome,
and you know it will never work?
Music in the park as the sun sets,
what a beautiful voice.
resonating through the falling autumn leaves,
vibrating oranges, yellows, greens.
the cadence leaves you breathless
her laugh hollows you out.
The last gleaming rays of sun shine bright in her stunning hazel-yellow eyes
The sun sets and the light fades but the glimmer in her eyes persist.

*snap* and i come to

I'm too old.
I can't date in the internship.
She wouldn't want to live with my crazy life even afterward.
so it all falls.
the leaves starve for oxygen
The stem weakens and breaks
they fall fall fall to the ground
they crumble to brown and die
my eyes open from this dream
and everything is at face value.
nothing but a friendship
no feelings attached
there can't be.
Don't lead her on.

pourquoi pourquoi pourquoi???
Je deteste la maniere que je me sens.....
tres belle...