your ass left you in a tree

what was his name? Absolom? i think so.
got his hair stuck in a tree and his donkey kept walking and he died there in the tree.
ya.....that was rather unfortunate for him.
turns out the thing he loved most (his hair) was what got him killed.
hmmmm

It's crazy how the enemy can attack you in so many ways without you even realizing it.
or how the line between "christian" and "unchristian" can become so skewed because we do not live according to the spirit.

I got some pretty intense change going on right now.
Like a smith, he'll put you under fire then beat the livin tar out of you
but in the end, you are beautiful and you are an expression through which people see Gods glory.
im under fire. buuuuuurn.

theres alot i miss about my past.
and alot i dont miss.
it's important to decipher between them....the good and the bad.
But the fact is, i will never be that person again, i will never live that life again, i will never be in that place again.
so we move on. we change, we grow, we evolve, we are transformed. In Christ.

so i guess im ok with my lack of friends, and the fact that i will not have a girl for a long time.
i've accepted that.
i've had a few heavy revys today. one, i will never let discouragement or insults hinder my relationship with God. I will never let my attitude fester with anger compromising my relationship with God. My Father in heaven comes first. first. first. first.
first.

its easy to say "i'd give this up if it meant i couldnt be a christian"
its easy to say cuz you'll probably never have to give up your gauges in order to stay christian.
but its not that simple no matter what is in question.....is it hindering your relationship with him? which is more important? is it limiting your Godly influence on people around you?" which is more important? is it pushing you toward God or keeping you from fulfilling your destinies and purposes? which is more important?
its difficult to say sometimes.
it may be gauges in your ears, it may be clothes style, it may be music you listen to, music you play on the guitar.
What hurts and holds back some people may not hold back others.
i had to get rid of my gauges, they affected the people i influenced in a negative way and were going to hold me back from all that God wanted to use me for.
i made a choice of which were more important.
if anything in any way will hinder the kingdom of God or in any slightest way go astray from Gods will, i want nothing to do with it.
whats in your life you may need to question? what has God been speaking to you? prayer isn't all about talking while God listens, spend sometime listening to what He has to say. You may have a few revelations of your own.